Addiction is no joke! Today is the day in 2018 when Canada legalized marijuana for recreational consumption. If you choose to spark-up today, that’s your choice and it’s understandable. In moderation cannabis use can have a less intoxicating effect on users. Fatal over-consumption is rare compared to alcohol or other drugs, but a dependency is still a dependency. Especially in the eyes of many recovery advocates, using marijuana to replace alcohol is NOT a good idea. Continue reading “#SoberOctober day 17 – Addiction”
It’s easy to get lost on this journey towards sobriety. Even if you’ve decided to only quit drinking for the month, Sober October can leave a person lost and lonely. Quitting one of our culture’s most social activities can leave you isolated physically and mentally. If you’re not drinking, what are you supposed to do with your hands? If you’re not drunk, what are you supposed to do with all these thoughts in your head?
We’ve talked in previous blog posts about prayer and meditation as a coping mechanism. Since prayer and meditation are different for everyone, it also might be helpful to do some more casual self reflection. Journalling, or keeping some type of diary are both excellent ways to get the contents of your head out in to the world so you can reflect on them. It can be as simple as going to a coffee shop by yourself and thinking about your life.
You can ask yourself questions like “Why do I drink so much?” “Why did I think I needed to quit?” “What are the triggers in my life that make me binge?”
In Alcoholics Anonymous, one of the steps is a “Fearless Moral Inventory” which asks the member to write down everything awful they’ve done under the influence. This doesn’t need to be an exercise in shame, but if you choose to embark on this project I believe you won’t want to drink to excess once you write out and reread all the downsides to drinking.
At day 15 you are just shy of 50% complete your challenge. You may be getting a second wind, or you may feel like the winds are pushing against you. The pressure inside, both physical and mental might be building up now that your body is realizing this experiment in abstinence is longer lived than anticipated. Continue reading “#SoberOctober Day 15 – Don’t stop me now”
Sobriety can be a scary thing. In my experience, everyone reacts to fear differently. One common way to deal with fear is dishonesty. If you’re afraid of the consequences of your actions, you might just lie to cover your tracks. We keep secrets from loved ones to protect them from the truth. We lie to ourselves to protect our ego.
When I was drinking heavily, coffee* was a desperate cure. I could not get it fast enough, and no amount of coffee would make me feel like a human again. Still, I would drink as much of it as I could, thinking it would cure my hangover and give me some feeling of normality after a night drinking alcohol.
So what have you learned so far? It’s hard to quit drinking? It’s easy to quit drinking? You miss the beverage? Or maybe you miss the social experience? Whatever it is that is bugging or not bugging you lately, you can push that aside thinking about how you’ve almost hit 2 weeks without alcohol. It’s impressive enough to say no to a drink once, but it’s a whole other thing once you’ve said it 5 or 6 times.
You may start to think “If I can make it 12 days, do I really have to prove I can go all month?” or “If I can go twelve days this easily, I never really had a problem in the first place”. This type of self talk isn’t wrong or taboo, it can be dangerous, but on your journey you will have many conversations with yourself and others about this very thing.
If you’re coming up against questions like this, perhaps it’s time to go over a few of the reasons you wanted to quit in the first place. Revisit the pros and cons list, and add new ones that you’ve discovered in the past twelve days. You’re also not quite at half-way, so if you can’t even make it half-way… maybe you DO have a problem…
If you’ve made it this far, I’m hoping you’re feeling good about this challenge. It’s my hope that Sober October is a gateway to an overall betterment of you as a person. The same way I used Sober October to push myself to quit for good, I want others to find what they are looking for, and succeed in their goals.
While some self-help authors and speakers preach a system of tapping in to your inner superhero, I take a more laid-back approach. I don’t think that any of us are particularly super, and I don’t think you can quit drinking by doing power-poses, positive thinking, or self-confidence alone. Alcoholism is a serious issue and treating it like the protagonist in a Marvel movie isn’t fair to those who struggle with it every day.
If you’re anything like me, at this point you may be barely keeping you head above the water. Neither going forwards or back, sinking or pulling yourself out, just staying the course. This is not the bad thing some make it out to be. Consider a functional alcoholic that is the head of a Fortune 500 company… on paper they may be moving 100 km/h and progressing their career in a way that makes them look like a real winner. Below the surface, there is a different story, one that doesn’t usually have the happiest of endings.
For us regular people, we can hold our heads high. Even if our chins are barely out of the water, and we wish we could start swimming toward our goals. We can take comfort in knowing that the longer we keep our heads dry, the stronger we become. The stronger we become the easier it will be to start the stroke that takes us from treading water, to swimming.
(note: this post was originally published in 2018)
Here in Canada, Thanksgiving happens on the second Monday in October. A day off of work to eat a giant meal with family is usually the type of thing where beer and wine flow freely, but for those of us who abstain it can be a mine-field of drama. Read more for ways to avoid the urge to drink. Continue reading “#SoberOctober Day 8 – Giving Thanks”
You’re officially a week down! No matter when you’re reading this, you’ve survived at least most of a weekend, for us in 2018 it’s Sunday so this post is going to be a bit of a rest. This is because rest is extremely important for your recovery. More than just a challenge of your willpower, quitting drinking for any amount of time is hard on your emotions, and mental capacity.
If you’ve been journalling, going to meetings, exercising and distracting yourself for the past week, you deserve some time to breathe. Quitting alcohol is a challenge, but it doesn’t need to feel like running a marathon. The only thing that you need to do to be sober is to NOT DRINK alcohol, so as long as you are doing that much, you’re winning.
So consider cheating on your diet a little, sleeping in, or skipping a gym session. Pray, meditate and take it easy. You’re doing great and you can being week 2 with more energy than if you had kept sprinting through today like a racehorse.
Not feeling strong enough to break your routine? That’s ok too! Do what YOU need to do, don’t listen to me if it doesn’t feel right.